Wednesday 15 August 2018

ill have another go!!

kia ora this my 4th attempt at writing this story I have been struggling to condense the last 3 and a bit years into a short concise story not sure if i've done that in the following words I guess I should start where I left off, I had been  walking up and down mount Maunganui frequently to raise money for surf life saving and to get me out of going to the gym but still keep up with the mission  I had begun!! I must have been getting too much fresh air that's when
i  when I was able to. breathe this uphill walking thing is designed to  destroy your heart and lungs, apparently 2 really important parts of the body you need to walk or roll back down the mountain, well this what i've been told and when i checked  who am I to disagree with doctor google??  Anyway I had this crazy idea that I needed to change my job from one sitting behind a desk to something more physical, dam it I got the first job I applied for so that challenge.Began really quickly, I ended up with a job in a warehouse picking and packing orders. about 3 hours into my first day I was ready to quittuff this physical stuff it's too hard I needed the safety of my desk, this running up down a warehouse picking orders was ok but  it was the emptying of th40 ft container that really killed me!! The warehouse was full of empty paint cans,even though they were empty, carrying stacks of them was hard work I was working with an older lady who was a machine, she  would do all this heavy work in the  warehouse then go and do a spin class! wtf that is some craziness right there when I  went home all I could do was collapse and  start planning my next meal!! lol hmmm, I wonder why I had to get physicalI didn’t quit I built s ramp  so I could get  wheelie thing over a step, much easier to use the wheelie thing, geez i'm always looking fQ'm always looking for the easy way out

this twas much easier and ffaster using the ramp anyway Isucked it up( that would be sucked up my lungs and heart  and went back  for a few more weeks of hell!! But dam it was good for converting this couch potato into aa  shoe string fry!! Lol I still have t  a long way to go however my. cardio fitness was increasing and my arm muscles were building up!! A nice side affect of lifting more than a pen!! The only time I was behind a desk was the courses I did, I had to get. forklift driving  license, nailed it!! The other  course I did  was getting qualified to open a shipping container!! Wtf I thought some bolt cutters and a bit of brute strength  was all that would be needed, apparently there is a lot of checking paperwork and being prepared for any creepy. crawlies again wtf, don’t the containers  get fumagated and checked for snakes etc and fumigation is probably not a good idea imagine the news coverage If found it was a container full of refugees seeking asylum here!! when the container arrives in nz?? when opening a containerMy plan was to squash and spray anything that moved and if I came across a box of white powder, do you think I’d be telling the authorities?? Hell no that box would be my way to  stop work and it would kickstart my retirement plan r I wouldn’t go and buy flashy things, that might draw attention to me however would  set myself up as the kingpin of the nz drug world! I'm so tough!! lol I’ve watched enough movies and documentaries to know how to establish. Myself!! Haha, Unfortunately I didn't to try out this new career the magic box didn't arrive before Finished that  job I left not because I was sick and tired of physical work.  i left because my nightmare started, I had a massive stroke, so a pretty good reason for giving up on anything work related!! hello couch/ wheelchair! I'm back!!lol and just for shits and giggles I had my stroke during the night and managed to fall on the floor where I lay for 2 days before I was found oh how dramatic of me!! sounds worse than what it was I had no idea how long I was on  the floor for, fyi don’t live by yourself,  if you do get  a medical  alarm thing so you can push the button when you find yourself in a situation and need someone to come save you from lying on the floor  I had the dog to keep me companyI think she did good, if you have a dog i would suggest training  your dog to. bring the phone or tv remote so if you can see tv an it will help pass the time and if your phone keeps ringing like mine was you will be able to answer and request help if You are on the floor I’m sure watching Tv will help  pass the time  And always leave food out for the dog you don’t want your lovely k9 to start looking at you like you are  a nice juicy steak!!my imagination works overtime now! lol But seriously dogs are good little companions I know this because after my first operation i was patting my imaginary dog while in recovery,  since that shitty night I've had  5 operations the surgeon knows my brain better than I do  I’m home now but I i'M paralysed down my left side and  need help with most things, However I can make tea and coffee and most importantly I can make bacon and eggs!lol all is good in the hood  if I. can still make bacon and eggs!! I can only do stuff from my wheelchair, I can stand and kinda shuffle around, but I can’t shuffle around in the kitchen to make food I’m a boy and multi tasking isn’t a strong skill I have! Lol standing and holding something doesn’t work too well my  brain can’t cope with doing too many things at once even standing and talking can overload my brain,  and before anyone tries to be be funny, yes I do have a brain I have scans of it for proof the scan also shows the hole which is causing.causing my problems Somehow I need to build a bridge and tell the neutrons to get ver it!lol yes I got dealt a pretty shitty hand but it is what it is and I need to get on with life I can't  dwell on the situation I do get frustrated though not being able to do the things we take for granted like walking sitting and standing holding onto a coffee cup with both hands!! Why do some of those  cups have teeny tiny handles an adult can’t fit their fingers in, we aren’t all going to a teddy bears An aesome side effect of this stroke is epilepsy I had a shunt installed to reduce the pressure in my skull,  so now that  have epilepsy I’m too scared to be by self. I also can’t drive so I need a support worker to take me out I’m onto my third support person all of the coffee and lunches out  Must be a bit much or I'm a total prick to work with!! I need social interaction outside of homeI spend more time with mum than what dad does when he is in the country!! I'm lucky mum and I get along well together but we do need some time apart or we starting fighting  Mum  and it’s true when you hear people say you find out who your real friends are it's so true I’ve had amazing support from those friends who have hung around and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to repay my family they have been  amazing, having a serious illness  doesn't just effect the person it happened to  I’ve changed the course of my families there lives and thankfully they allow me to ask for things and they don’t make me feel stink I do that to myself for asking that’s hard to do with anyone, going from being totally I dependant to relying on others for everything, there are a few things I can still do or half do. toilet is all me except i need a hand to pull up the left side of my pants! showering is mostly me, washing is all good, drying not so good and dressing even worse so lots of help there it's  hard to deal with at times I’m not sure if I’ll be able to drive again I have left side  neglect so all sorts can happen to the left of me and I don’t notice which could be problematic driving, the left side of the car would constantly need a paint tI'm not sure if insurance would pay up frequently l on my left, geez I can. E a. Menace driving my power chair!! I ran into the reception lady at the hospital and I reunited into the dog a few times, oops with her deafness she doesn’t hear. Ycoming andshe doesn’t seeallthatwell, she is 13 not to bad for an old girl! lol oh yeah so a ktowhat I stRtedto sYa few people have stuck by me a lot of people have disappeared I’m not sure if it’s ecauseill. E a mess and unable tocommunicate, I did hear a visitor I had in hospital say oh
Looks like he did before, what were they expecting? I wasn’t mangled in a car crash and I heard a lot kfpeoplecomment on how well I could talk, oki get that one but for any good people visiting friends or fa ily just remember those curtains are not sound proof lol drs and nurses need to remember that to, I learnt all about the guy in the next ed I knew his ame birthday I’ll ess when he was duetoba e pipes and tubes changed I also learnt which nurse was learning to change and clean his stuff FYI. Ed baths aes nothing like the picture books and special videos would make them outto. Ed! Lol so if you need the down low on hospital stays just ask! Lol so yip a lot friends have dropped off the face of the earthor they all have their invisibility coats on lol a big thank you to those people who awe Dound, I don’t expect much I thought I may have got the Kc assional hello maybe they don’t know kw what to talk about with me like I am and the passing of. Y fVouriteand only little brother maybe these things created a perfect storm and have scared people away lol that’s just the first year i ebeen off this blog  I have plenty more I could say to filling the other 2 years but I won"t. thank you for reading this far!! must cuppa tea time lol I just thought of something ese I need to do. Ihave to change all of my inline fsting app description thongee yes there is more than 1 I am/ was desperate!! lol I need to chsnge  the I love long walks on the brach at sunset to I love beong pushed along the footpath closr to the beach at sundet so lng as I'm not  tired and Ialso love romantic dinners Ineed to change that to I love romantic dinners , you me and mum!! she has to take mr lol wow what a catch. qho wouldn't want all that ?? loland I haven't totally changed
i still spend a lot of time watching tv thank goodnrdd for netflix lol but that give me even more to watch lol and I'm still trying to turn into smaller oitato, not easy whrn movrmrnt is limitrd, so i have joined s mobility  apparently going there consistantly andeating healthy should have an affect and gwlp mw towards my goal.... dumb who qants that id rsther havr a magic pill lol